death is peaceful, life is harder..

i guess i got ure attention? hahaha not being suicidal here..nwei, i just ran into there words when i was browsing through polyvore (yes, may day is yet again spent on polyvore and gg marathon, im now in season 2 haha hurray me!) back to the topic, the line reminded me of a special friend of mine.. although i'm trying not to look back, i can still remember some fond memories with him. when he first told me those words, i didnt quite understood him and thought that he was just lonely and exaggerating; i told him to shrug it off.. well now i guess understood what he meant a few years back.. i don't exactly know the reason behind his words cause i didn't see it back then. now, with all that has happened between us, i realized the mistakes on my side of the fence, (who said you can get anything from watching a series..) i know that these wont reach him, and that there's no way that i cant get him back but i sincerely want to apologize for all the wrong things that i have done. maybe it was not meant from the start, and although i cant see you, i feel that your happy with what you have right now. well what can i say, it really does take time to heal those wounds, maybe in the future fate will bring us back together, maybe, just maybe, there no harm in hoping right? as for now, i will leave you alone, while i still ponder on finding the reason why i can't seem to forget you after all these years. on why one msg from you can suddenly change my mood. on why every time i hear your name, i would suddenly feel weak. on why every time i see your face or name my heart suddenly skips a beat. and on why, i'm still hoping for my happily ever after. yes, indeed death is more peaceful while life is harder.. this is because in life, one still bother to solve silly problems like this while the other party is out there living another life. i don't make sense do i?

~just ranting on what i had but i don't have. dropping another line from facebook..
~love is the only medicine for a broken heart.